Gone are the days!!

Gone are the days!!!

When I was still a boy!!!

Smoking a cigarette in secret was the only joy!!!

When,impressing my first crush,was the only dream I had...

Reaching home late and sneaking through the closed door, were like those horror nights..

Where getting caught by dad was like a nightmare come alive..

Mom!!...Mom use to be my best friend, and she use to save me from all those pot-holes of criticism and despair, which otherwise would have drowned my childhood,

and I would have stood like a loner and would have perished admits the crowd.

She was always there, holding an umbrella of faith, while I danced in the rain!!

Cherishing every drop of rain which trickled down my chic..

One morning my alarm clock rang!! [tringggg]].... I woke up startled!!... and realized all this to be a dream of my past... 

I jumped off my bed!!.. and looked in the mirror, and saw a strange face staring back at me..like he knows me soo well.

He seemed to look all grown up, but had a hint of his childhood hiding beside that anxious smile..

It gave me a shiver of joy when I recalled the the boy who I once was..

The days!! When,I grew up through dusky days and darkest nights...

When I stumbled and scattered,among the thrones of life ,and yet!! found myself "happy" and "alive" ..

But I lost my childhood...and I blamed that on  the person in the mirror..

Days passed by!!..

And I slowly and gradually started playing along with this monotonous life... 

"A role play of being an Adult"

Because, this world had made me believe by now  that life is a "Game"...

Where!!.. being at the top is the only option I have...

So, Today!!...I cheers to all that is gone...

And . to all the "unknowns" which is yet to come...

I assume... I'm  on my way to achieve what I want..and yet..why do I still find myself at the corner of the room...

"Scared and weak",and trying to find a way out of all this chaos"..

I try to shake it off!!.. but it takes control over me every time...

Setting a reminder that all this is a myth!!!

Then I turn around and ask myself...

"What do I really want from this fucking life???""

"""Then the boy from the corner of the room which I had locked for long,comes closer to me and whispers in my ear"""....

Free me!!!! Free me!!!! Free me!!!!!